Why do some people refuse to explain their actions or behavior when asked? Why do they claim to not know the reason instead of providing an explanation?

hahahahaah Heaven was awesome.

the world is more than just “work, video games and movies” and your little family drama… lol

Anyway, the families were torn apart, disgraced, disrespected and forced to “reform and obey” and squabble, and bow down.

Hello,hope y'all doin good, i came to Quora to share my strange story , a very weird one , a story when luck smiled at me ,maybe u will enjoy it , let's begin,have fun... A year ago ,I was a real porn addicted(btw I was 18) ,but never had sex before, I don't have a gf I didn't try to find one even ,always thinking to go to find a sex worker but then I just don't , everyday watching different bodies getting fucked and everyday enjoying. One day, I was watching porn, a big ass lady with big boobs ,just after seeing her the image of my female cousin poped in my mind, (let's introduce her : she's 35 years old , very big ass , nice boobs ,not very big but nice,always wearing tight clothes , she's divorced ) and I thought of me fucking her ,I never had sexual desires for her but now I do days went by and when I met her I was so horny ,I couldn't stay with the family cz my penis was clearly erected , I realized this is my first time I get horny for one of my family ,it not illegal in my country.well to make a long story short( if u want details just text me I will tell u 😊),I decided to give her signs that I want to fuck her,finally I decided to have sex and with my cousin , I thought it is the best beggining for me, i started touching her when I came across her in a narrow place , make her feel my hard cock when we hug , I thought it will hard and I will be ashamed but no , I felt nothing and she said nothing , probably she thought it was by mistake,anyways, I decided then to talk with her about sex, waited for her to be alone in a room and talk with her, I confessed everything about me watching porn and addicted..etc,she said it's normal and u are growing up and u must have sex,well at that time I was like whaaat????? Well I didn't control myself and asked her for sex ( horny like I Ve never been before) she said that she will think Abt it ,2 weeka went by then she called me ,telling that she reserved a room in a hotel and we meet tonight ,we met,and bruuhh, sex is great , I mean, I had to find a pirstitue ,what I was waiting for to have such a feeling ????, I will never forget that night, I started kissing her she was kissing hard ,she misses sex so bad , she sucked my dick and swallowed my semen ,I felt I'm in a dream , then when fucked ,her ass was very big and the anus was open ,didn't struggle to get my hard cock inside it , she was obviously missing sex , she was shouting ,fuck me yh fuck me , I go fast after every word until I cum , we did that 3 times , then we went to her pussy , using condoms I fucked her so hard the moans were higher , everything was perfect ,in the end I asked her to lick her body , licked pussy ,ass, boobs,then she sucked my cock until we sleeped ,all I know that she was dirty ,well before even having sex with her I knew she is an open minded woman , and a woman that looks that she donesnt know anything , but she knows everything, but never expected having sex with her ,well she was horny and that helped...but no one of us regretted that sex ever.. We still have sex from time to time ,and I started having sex with sex workers , joining threesomes..etc If u want pics of her text me.

and mutilation of young woman, beating, kidnap, dragging them naked in the streets, disrespecting their dead bodies…

They try to tamper with my food in this modern day. lol

thats the closest way i can describe it.

What should I do if I love someone who does not love me?

And its no wonder, so many dead beat dads ditch their girlfriends and wives… they say “ they cant take it no more” it would drive any person insane… hell i would know it would drive me insane…

and, if i seem to make something out of it, they normally try to steal it , or destroy it like…the holy bible said “ the devil is a liar, a thief and destroyer or killer”

still being a good person… i see this when i see a family man or dude give up his dreams for his “sons or daughter”

Why is the world male-dominated?

slyvestor stallone one of my favorite actors and role models…

But, hey, if a hot , beautiful woman was there, and she gave me loyalty and love… i guess, i would give up my sanity, peace, money and pretty much work till i die.

but i will be prepared for “death” and when its over…when this struggle and life is over..

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But, wait, it doesnt stop there. History knows no-bound of atrocity.

but he hopes his “kids” get the opportunity to change that and have upward mobility and go to college or whatever…

But, i see modern day “SNOW FLAKES” where people flip out because you called them a insulting name…lol hahahah or a pebble flew and chipped their “car paint”

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Of course, if you pay attention, there is “water boarddding” and other forms of torture and stuff.

and if you dig deep enough, even Egyptians (brown) people had brown slaves…or Romans had slaves… etc…this world isn’t completely rainbow and sunshine…

Of course, am not this way. But I seen , people do petty, evil, stuff and treat people as awfully as they can.

How do I seduce a maid for sex?

got a big point there…

so , it shocks me when people hate “police” because they are so in love with “darkness” drugs, etc…they hate the truth…but if you look at “portland oregon” or whatever… with the pretty much crime free for all, its messed up.

Not sure. But , in the end, life has been super interesting…am about 40 year old now.

Does a narcissist ever get their comeuppance/karma for the vile things they've done? Such as cheating, smear campaign, etc.

For example : say i wanted to hurt someone.

For example: when i was a kid, i got to watch cartoon, eat cereal, go to school and that was pretty much it. Sometimes i was hungry, bored, broke, poor, did not have fancy clothes or shoes to show off at school or whatever…but if you think about it… Millions of other kids in the world, dream or think my life is a fantasy.

Anyway, america is awesome. Modern day is awesome. There is some backward people still and some people suck and the world aint perfect and the economy and inflation is sucking and the titanic is getting heavy with influx of immigrants and ect…

Can you share the entire summary of your spiritual life?

but anyway, yes i know people going to hate, and tell me how bad their life is and they had a “bad day” and whatever… and thats okay.

So, just like veggies or vegetables: you know, the criminal minded or young dummy adults, think drugs, smoking, and drinking and partying is cool, which it is…for a little while…then you wake up… with pain you got to live for the rest of your life, which you try to dull with more party, but everyday you wake up like “ground hog day” where you realize, life is never going to stop sucking or hurting.

I can tell you: it aint easy being me, either.

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its pretty cool

I guess, heaven felt like i was in my 12 year old body. Zero pain. but even better , maybe like a baby body in a safe hospital bed, sleeping, protected, light, comforted….

but hey…its pretty awesome to be here, thank god.

If you received hand-me-downs as a child, how did they make you feel?

and all the other unknown tortures they do in “captivity”

My point is: there is evil in this world.

well, they say “ lords staff or rod is like comfort” to me… i can die “comfortably” knowing at least this hell is over.

When a dog smells another dog’s poo or wee, do they then remember that scent for when they smell it again, or even further know which dog they are smelling if they know the dog?

So, guys, if you are single, you can go relax, its “easy street” go get a beer, smoke, relax, enjoy life =D hahahahahahahahaahahahahahahah

and if you reach that limit, you can take a break, or sit down… and its not about being “selfish” and take…

There is that singer that sings “ SO YOU HAD A BAD DAY”

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Some of you freak out and may be worried…not me. I dont care.

Even though they were American’s , unlike the italians and other countries part of the ww2, the japanese people lost EVERYTHING. Their homes, business, families, love life, and it was all confiscated, and they were shipped into a train, and led into a “concentration camps” , where you know, u.s soldiers probably raped, tortured, beat the men, humiliated them, and I say “PROBABLY” stuff like this happens in real life, you know, you watch the news, or see reports of “prison abuse” so without camera or anyone to report, “who really knows what happened”

but i like to look at my whole life… not just a bad day…

What exactly is the difference between a surge protector and a fuse? Can a fuse protect the electronic devices from lightning instead of surge protector?

LOL HAHAHAHHAHAHA

Nothing is ever easy in life huh… hahahahahaha

hahahahaahah

As a guy, how do you know you if you are considered attractive?

and, all i know is: when judgement day comes, (the day i die) i can leave this world behind…so am not even mad or angry or upset…

But this is the cycle of humans… you know, the “BE A MAN” era kinda ended… and now “ its snowflake” era entering into “drizzle drizzle” era…where men act like woman to show woman how “ridiculously easy” it is for woman…and to kinda make them regret ever demanding a 9 to 5 job…

But, I think “ U.S “ tries to up stand and up hold geneva conventions and tries to be “good guys” or not evil. Now days, its way harder for that evil to exist or it exist over-the-border…

just hurts to be alive…hahahahaahahahahahahahahaahahhasahahaha

damn.. i look around, and people want to be managers or leaders because it “pays” more…but it sure sucks and is not fun.

debt aint no joke. it sucks.

People dont even know whats good for them….like a kid that hates his veggies or brocoli (and prefers ice cream for dinner and candy)

And, you think, suiiii-cide is the way out…but your probably too chicken.

Now, i get it…some people say “ oh soldiers are bad or anti war this or that” or there is some “corruption” in the military or whatever…

while our ancestors or whatever… you know, got their entire homes burned down, business taken, money taken, life style taken, their lives taken to concentration camps, their woman taken… etc….

If you look at prisoners in the modern day world today, the gangs, cartels, evil is out there.

its more comedic to me.

Man, so we covered asians, blacks, indians.

i mean, i think the older generation had to go thru some really hard stuff…

in a way: being single , rejected, called ugly, incel and unwanted by woman was a “blessing in disguise”

no work, no money, no food, no rent money… if you got kids, i feel for you… thats a super burden.

I really like the “LION KING STORY” you know simba, mufasa, etc… because, when mufasa the evil lion takes over…the world goes to poooooooo… and darkness….

so, you know, i see these mexican dudes still working hard as land scapers , and they probably have kids and hope their kids have a better life..

then, i come back to this world, and my body hurts, back hurts, i hunger, i thirst, its painful….

i find this comforting.

Am not saying its a completely scary world out there…sure you can travel, have fun, go site seeing, and its a beautiful world, and there are some beautiful and nice, and good people all over the world…

it comforts me ….

I guess, they lost sight of whats important and “perspective” like a spoiled child or man-child.

Some people complain and get mentally brain washed, yea, i get it, america isn’t perfect…but its far from the twisted stuff in the past, and what is happening in the world.

Ice cream, cheetos, and pizza? Then, they will cry about tooth ache, diabetes, being fat, sick, stomach ache , crashing, not feeling good….

So, dont carry hate , i was not pointing out the asians, white, or black, or brown people… Its so you LEARN FROM IT…not use it to hate…

And the kids, you know, they were taught to obey the white man, and basically the people were used as a punching-bag for the hatred, anger, fear that the american’s had for the war that was going-on , over seas.

Hell was interesting. And i think , I met God.. it was awesome.

because, i dont got to be “responsible” AT-ALL.

So even “COW BOYS” had to have “GRIT” basically, people died easily by diseases, wolves, dehydration, indians, predators, darkness, things that go bump in the night, hunger, thirst…..in the wild west…

you know, he keeps going to work, taking more works, hours, and giving up his dreams, desire to sit down, or go chase his fantasy life, and he keeps working for his “family sake” and he moves his feet forward, sure, his fantasy life or having “nice things” aint going no where…

White on white crime was like when the Nah-ziiiii’s did in the concentration camps to the jewish people. They stripped them of their business, homes, life styles, took their woman, raped them, made them breeders, enslaved the kids to manual labor, poisoned the fathers, tortured the men and enslaved them, broke them, and if they fought back, killed them…

And, you know, the woman would get raped, used for sexual pleasure, give birth in prison, and these people were innocent, “just wrong race, at the wrong place” and the men would get humilated, and it was pretty much a “prison” in the middle of the desert.

Anyway, am 40 ish old …now…

Its not just the japanese, history is full of darkness and blood, even black slavery were men were abused , humbled, manipulated, forced to fight as “mandingo’s” entertainment for the white slave owners, that controlled their lives to the extent of who they can love, who they had to kill, as the woman were used as “house pets or slaves and sexual toys” ….

if you got a wife, omg, you got to make sure she is also fed, housed, clean, and healthy too.

i think he meant, life is going to be hard, its going to punish you, you going to have to take alot of L’s or work, abuse , dissapointment from family, life, being broke, etc…and still keep moving forward with your college dreams, health, and keep moving “forward”

but, you know, the 1st does come along…the bill does come in the mail…

So, I say unto to you, dont hate, dont carry hate, learn that all those war crimes, atrocity, whatever wicked people did, they choose that path, and did what they thought best ……

lol

i guess, its like credit card huh….your “NOT WORRIED about the bill”

i guess, its that holy spirit or jesus christ guidance?

Until , people repent, like turn to jesus christ… its never going to get better.

They do satanic evil witch craft, kidnaps even today, with the hammmm -assss

…. i wonder how these people would fair if they ever faced real adversity.

Tortured them, starved them, beat them up, humilated them, probably gay-grape them, took their jobs, woman, houses, business, life style, and also “poisoned them” with tampered food.

And, if they boys and girls loved each other, oh no, they would destroy that love, torture the heart, and if they fought back or demanded some decency, they get bullied, isolated, stripped of what little money they had, tortured, mocked, goaded, made out to be like savages and then turned into a criminal or outlaw.

If you look at war crimes , you can see , how evil people of EVERY COLOR and RACE can get.

what do you expect would happen if you let a “kid” run dinner time? hahahahahaha

And, lets not forget what happend to the “indians” that lost 90% of the race. All the warrior men got killed off, introduced with diseases, their culture and life style burned to the ground, the old men were kept alive to guide the rest of the tribe that obeyed and did not fight-back, the woman were used as house pets, sexual objects, breeding grounds, maids, and the kids were forced to reform, and if for example: the boy had long indian hair, they would cutt off the hair, as a symbol that they are “american’s forced to reform from their savage ways” , and the young girls would be used for sexual stuff, and also forced to “dress a certain way”

The italians and other axis countries that were also warring , was spared, probably because there was too much of a big Presence in New york, and it was not “easy to identify” a white man american from a italian one.

but mostly its the “LESSER OF TWO EVILS” And, I rather be on America side.

I never really been on a “real movie date or dinner date” and the best they offer me is normally the “worse they got” lol hahahahaaha

There is even books on how to torture someone… I mean, look at what what happened to the japanese in america..

and even demons roam around here on earth… and angels too…

Never really had a girlfriend, never been to prom, never really danced with a woman, never had a love life, people slandered me, called me incel, fat, stupid, dumb, psycho, broke, mocked me, goaded me, told me am no good, influenced woman to not like me, lied about me, rejected me, tried to bully me, and i never had birthday sex, or valentine date, or new year eve’s kiss, and you know, i guess, i dont got that social proof, or had that “money” where woman would be like “ no, i really like him and want to give him a chance” they were more like “ oh no, he dont got that much money, and people think he is lame, so i guess, am going to chase mister -playa” lol hahahahahaah and then they get played and you know, old….

butttt NOOOoooOOoooo

Some people or peers of mine, felt entitled or sat on their rejection of love, being broke, and turned to drugs, gangs, crimes, as if , “ that one small little facts of life made their dream life here on AMERICA” all that bad…

And, i walked to school… met some racist folks, haters, bullies, racist teachers, but they were temporary.. and i learned some stuff, studied, at free food from public school…

and , yes, girls didnt like me or rejected me, but is that “really ALL THAT BAD”

i guess, the office t.v show had that funny comment..when one of the guys said “ being a cult leader was fun and you got rich, but being a follower is way more fun”

i guess, that is super cheezy and i dont think he knows the bad-days i seen but i do admit…

If you watch people, you got to watch them carefully, immigrants , crazy people on the news, drug addict, wrathful people, wicked people, mostly hide in the dark corners of the u.s now.

plus: i been to hell and met jesus christ and the devil and the anti christ.

me: i aint doing that stuff… Am too lucky to be born in AMERICA…

so, am proud to be a AMERICAN…

Unless they are possessed by the devil…if they do that… they are trying to do the worse possible thing to you.

because, they like to add “salt to injury” Or do maximum punishment

My life is in no way perfect! I can find bunch of “single trees” (problems) or bumps in my life but normally it was “generally smooth” ride…

Life was way easier when you are 16 and working the lowest responsibility job, and you can get fired, goof off, and you dont got to worry that much because your parents still around paying the bills…its easy time…

They say the “crown is heavy” but everyone wants that power.. hahaha

College is no joke. The pressure and psychic mind burden and mental fog and its “draining”

but, there are some twisted, evil, bastards….

am still grateful , but this pain is something. lol

good bye life, good bye free time, good bye video games, good bye clean clothes, lol hahaahahahahahahahahah good bye money…

Wherever we go next… some of you might be “fukked” lol ahhaahhaahahaha

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my co worker used to drink on the job but he worked and buried himself in work as he had like 3 kids to feed and he was going to have to work till he died to “support them” hoping they go to college, or get a good career etc….

because, this world is temporary and a illusion anyway…sure it sucks bad…

and sent them to concentration camps, gave them “chemical showers” that burned their skin-off.

parents do that for their kids… and, the kids dont understand or whine in college that reading a book is too hard… lol hahahahahahaahahahahaaahahahahahahah ahahahahahahahahaahahahahahahaha

I guess, they were being over dramatic or looking at the single trees and missing the BIG FORREST.

They lost all their money, respect, business, houses, just because you know, they were “japanese” lol

am not taking side because its fluid and a joke anyway… just people stuck in their “melodrama”

right now, as i sit here, my back aches, my butt hurts from sitting, my hips hurt, my legs hurt… ugggh… lol hahahahhaha

I probably had 1000 days of good days… or normal , boring days, where i had shelter, food, water, and did not have to worry about surviving, and maybe 100 bad days. lol

but it felt better than that.. like a baby on drugs… lol

10% is not bad…

And, i know, some of you may be angry at me or think am anti american or accuse me of “exposing the bad” but nay, i just went to the museum and studied bunch of random stuff…

Why? I felt no pain. Zero. No knee pain, no back pain, no worries, no care, no body, just felt like “light and love”

It sure dont feel that way…when people bully you, beat you up, goad you, tamper with your food, attack you mentally, physically, mock you with girls, love, and they try to give you their hatred…

Where did I learn this? You know, watching history channel or going to a museum.

and people would die by gun fights, etc… and they had to “go-on” living or building life…and it took “TRUE GRIT” they could not lose their cool.

Point is: everybody has to make it thru this life, and do their time, till their appointed hour before they meet god. Meanwhile, while we wait, on our on judgement , we got to live our lives in this “firmament”

Then, you know, i meet my little nephew… he “freaks out” about small things… like he got a chip in his “car paint” because you know, its a BIG DEAL to him… lol he does NOT HAVE “PERSPECTIVE”

Some weird, narrow path, which i guess is okay, i think i met the anti christ…and jesus christ..

I get it though… its boring or you get tapped out or burnt out… or bored… but its just funny.

he gets mad and rages, and flips out about stuff like that….

we all have bad days… i guess, rocky balboa said “its about how much YOU CAN TAKE, and still KEEP MOVING FORWARD” - rocky 5

Where my american dream was pretty sweet. Sure, am not a rock star, or born rich, and still had to deal with small doses of hate, bullying, disrespect, etc…

but, my american dream was pretty good…i did not have to do much.

Because, police, dea, fbi, cia, bunch of agency keeps us safe and watch for our lives , as we live the “american dreams” while the “soldiers” fights over -seas.

Being adult means , missing work, and you get evicted from your apartment…etc…

jesus christ saved me from hell. And there were people and demons there and things.

hell, you just look around to your local life, and there are many hard-working americas who are tired or doing good in this world…that dont get the recognization they deserve…

So, I beat them up. But, not only that, i want to “torture them” mentally, spiritually, etc… Then, if my victim ask, “why i beat them up” I wont say a thing or leave them “wondering” and if they ask “ i might gas light or avoid them to deny them ‘closure’ “ etc… and if they try to make peace with me, i might not even give them that..